twinnigans

ahhh today. i found. that. paul dempsz' scarf in his music vid is. the. same. as. maiiinne..my new red flannie one, that i didn't really like..but now have found a great love for.

hehe.

hoho.

haha.

awesome.

'soul mates', some would say.

mm and i'm predicting a really simple album in july, a lot like bernard fanning's Tea & Sympathy a few (?) years ago.. like just really basic hum-worthy acoustic songs, with only him and his guitar.

weewww, the simple things.

life is GOOD.

6 foot 7 inch jewish cat named kurtzneil will freestyle rap for cash.

i found a whole heap of zines and free fashion/ep-launch magazines/flyers that i'd picked up in brisbane this time last year, and found one that i'd never really read. the male model in it was named Felix which was cute enough to begin with, but i also found a v great description for a clothing label:

'they're [the two male designers] still doing skateboards too, but they wanted to get into the fashion industry to hang out with the hottest girls. they think fly-fishing is a great hobby.

Wear it if You: also think Heath Ledger is absolutely murderising as the Joker.

Dress to Impress: your asian girlfriend's big brother and parents.'

hahaha absolute hole in one, am i right ? made me giggle a little.

i over-heard my art teacher talking to a girl in the back of the class in a lesson a few weeks back and just remembered this morning what she'd said. i wrote it down so i won't forget, her words really made me think.

she was talking about balance, and that if you don't like an artwork that you've done, it could be bc of the lack of balance. she said not to change everything in it, just take away one thing and add one thing.

it's also a mini-philosophy that she lives her life by.

when you're not happy with your life, she said that you should take away one thing that's not working and replace it with one good thing, to achieve balance in your life. i really love that.

for a secret reason, a few days ago, my moods were a little exaggerated. i'd get super excited or find things extra hilarious..yesterday i discovered the reason for me being a little bit whoops lately, but that's irrelevant. what i found out is that while being in the whoops mood/s i had said some things that i probably would not have let slip to certain people in my life otherwise..they weren't bad things at all; just personal feelings that i normally wouldn't have disclosed so openly, i guess.

i'm really glad that i did, though, and it made me realise that i shouldn't over-think things so much.

so, to go with my teacher's philosophy; the one thing that i'm going to try and eliminate from my life is the way i often hold back in saying what i'm really thinking. no matter what the consequences are of what i say, i'll at least know that the person in question will know what i'm really feeling.. surely this is the best option, even if it upsets them at first ? i hope so.

the one thing that i'm going to add to my life is spontaneity and more exercise.

- behold; the re-vamped rachel :)

also, i was talking to my sister last night on the phone and we were talking about what i might do next year; whether it will be uni or not. i think i'd really like to study speech pathology now, and not just bc of the biased fact that that's what she's studied for the past four or so years and has 110% talked it up..

i just really love that cool language stuff is combined with amazingly interesting anatomy-esque/human body goings-on and sciences, all in one job !

but more than anything, i can't wait to learn learn learn next year.. i really don't want to have a year off..i just want to fill my brain, haha. can't wait.

i honestly can't even begin to imagine how people can just settle for a corner-store job when they're 30-50 ish and not want to read the paper/s or care about what's going on in the world around them. i so hugely love learning new things, just finding out great new topics and people that this massive world has to offer is so amazing and intriguing to me.

i love the idea that middle-aged people go back to uni. i mean, they have their job and have studied for years, but still want to go back and learn more - to just read and learn and expand their knowledge.

there's a crazy boy in one of my classes, and he has whopper discussions with the teacher about the 4th dimension in chemistry or these immense scientific theories and books they've read, that i've never thought of or heard of in my life. he used to be in my english class and there too he'd always have a comment to add about something unknown and general knowledg-y about shakespeare or a literature that he's recently read.. some people get annoyed by his comments, but he intrigues the absolute shit out of me. i always listen to what he says and think 'wow' there's so much i don't know or haven't even considered ever before.

..and he has this huge hair - it's like the real life/male version of gretchen weiner - except his hair is full of crazy knowledge/intelligence instead of secrets. haha.

isn't this sweet, i'm still trying to work out 100% what it means:

'Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.'

yehehaha, thanks megs:

the end.

what in the what.

i wish upon wish that i had been the first to say,
'hello shredder. meet my fist. now let me punch you so i can fix my dishevelled bangs', or something similar/to that effect.

i'm so tired of being torn between elling (that's blogger talk for myspace talk for msn '(L)ing' talk) and really hating blogger.
i mean, it's not like decisiveness has ever been my strong point !
for eg., i remember crying at subway once bc i was too stressed at the amount of choices and couldn't make my mind up.. i was only seven/eight so it's aaalmost forgiveable. (plus i gained a free cookie out of the whole experience..)
BUT THAT DIDN'T CHOOSE MY LUNCH FOR ME.
nor did it teach me to not yell at spontaneous intervals: hello line above,
hello saturday night.

i was looking through my e-archives (that have got absz nothin' on noozie's 'shit' e-files/photographs from past years) and found a folder of movie screenshots. reminded me of the movie marie antoinette; just how shite and redicz (HAHA oh man i wish i hadn't started automatically shortening 'ridiculous' on the weekend, hello saturday night II) hollow the movie was, but how flipping good-looking it was. the hair was so perched up huge and high and blonde and the costumes so gob-smackingly gorgeous, along with the desserts and shoes and palace of versailles and gold and gardens and ohhh.
take a peek if you want..
i think these photos were from a flickr account at some point, i didn't save the site, which is annoying for both me and the site-holder:




actually, in hindsight, those pictures give the aesthetic of the movie v v v little justice, you should totally rent it out and watch it. on mute. or something.

i think i'd really like to make a leather or lookalike black leather/pvc leotard on the weekend ! it sounds like fun. i found an image of one the other day and couldn't believe that i handn't before thought of that. it seems so easy, and i know for a fact that mum has a trillion patterns for them lying around the house from my dancing concert days. i even think i prefer this really simple round neckline; who would've thought ! i'm usually all for embellishments..but maybe i'm a changed man ? oh well ish ! also, a diy that i will most likley not complete this weekend is the crazy slouchy/drapey/bloomer skirt thing, which is pictured below also.
this one is part of a harness/belt/suspenders combo which is a little questionable, but i just love the way the apricot number has been all gathered and pulled up fantastically - looks like the sort of thing that you could never wear the same twice ! i'm not even sure how it could be made, but i think once i've decided upon something to secure them/it to, it'd be pretty simple ? hopez.
the tights look fun too, not sure how they'd be made/where they'd be bought.
but what fun..you could wear them by themselves or over something, or even pull tulle or a crazie soft fabric through them for partie pants ? oh man, what fun. i just wish they were footed, but win some/lose some i guess hey.



a relatively new label, complex geometries, really hits the spot for me. the pieces are all so so simple and basic is mostly nice monochromatic colours, though at the same time, all of the pieces are so strikingly different and can be worn in the most epic number of ways ! the white dress/top on the far right, for eg., actually has the armholes on the back of the dress; causing the pulled-forward effect, which causes so much material to fall so nicely at the front. the thin fabric i guess adds to the way that it drapes and falls so effortlessly and unevenly. asymmetry can be used so awesomely, if done in just the right amount of moderation.
this luella skirt [the middle one] is also fab with uneven but balanced harmony.

i refer back to it all the time when i'm in need of some quick creative inspo.

(Complex Geometries:)



just to add the length of this blog, i'd really like to add how much i've been re-listening to george lately. looking on their site, they haven't toured since 2003 or so, and i really like that ! i've got no problem listening to old records over and over, they're still so gorgeous. i was googling katie noonan and george and remembered that the old residents of the house across the road had attended a wedding where george had also been, a few years back..how amazing.
and that also, the name 'george' came from one of their first large nights on stage and they'd had no band name to that date, so just spluttered umm GEORGE! and from that, the name was born (:
on a blog or forum i came across the name of a song that Sia and Katie Noonan have been said to have sung together, called 'Sweet One'.
unforch i couldn't find it anyway on the internet - but didn't look too hard. it wasn't even on youtube, though i did find a recording of Katie and Lior singing I'll Forget You at the last Woodford folk festival. wow huh !
i also found a copy of Katie singing a Beatles song and also one of my sister's and my own favourite Radiohead songs..i still liked the originals a lot better than her own, but they were such interesting takes on the songs; her style is completely different..it really intrigued me.
speaking of lior..or not really at all..i've been adoring Sia and Lior's (original version of) I'll Forget You. her harmonies are perfect and just loud enough to be heard without overpowering his own. i think i like the song mostly, though, bc i can relate a prettie sizeable amount to it. hmm, enough said.

'Like a bowerbird collecting blue, see me gather words to let you know; it's hard to let this go. You still make me cry, like a song of the east that loses its centre but always finds its way back home. Oh, how this bird has flown. It's time to forget the road we never traveled along.'

wow this has become so long.. so much for the pact that i tried to make months ago about keeping these short and sharp.
i didn't want to break up any of it or to remove bits, i really wanted to blog about all of this ! what a shame.
let me know if you read all the way to the bottom haha ?

just like last night, let's put it on repeat.

hmm so i posted this a few nights ago, got a response and took it down bc i'm soft.
i don't want to aim it anyone this time, or any time, so i'm just throwing the comment/observation out there. some sections have been a little altered/removed ('_____', haha..real subtle ? :s) to be a little nicer..?
maybe its still ~ absz same as before, i don't know.

"today a friend 'helpfully' - and i use that word sparingly - shoved me headfirst into a blog that ___________. i dunno, maybe its just a cruel coincidence..but i'm not too sure. i cant take this as a compliment, i just find it rude.
its blogger..why am i upset ? just today i was saying to a gf that ive got to stop getting worked up over social networking sites. if anything, its a little embarrassing ! but help my dignity, please..its not yet back in tact after tonight's findings.

why do people do this ? it happens so often in art class to friends of mine and sometimes even myself .. people so blatantly copy. why cant they take inspiration if they really feel the need..and add some of their self to the creation and wham bam its all their own; no visual plagiarism in the slightest. but nooope, that would require effort, right. and who needs/uses that nowadays ? lets all become mentally obese as we prey upon those who try and spin their own thoughts into a yarn of creativity and individual thought. lets all jump on the intellectually yawn-worthy bandwagon and flamboyantly display our identically duplicated wares to all with no shame or lack of self-satisfaction. shit shat shet shot shut right down.

trust me to use big words when i'm emotional. or drunk, for that matter. not that i am now..but it needed to be said by someone at some point..i mean, you know it. i know it. we all know it. you were totally thinking it. aye. aayeee."

one last thing before i shuffle off the planet.

write about what moves you, write about what makes you cry, if you can, think of something funny, write down words you like, write down conversations you have had or heard somewhere, paint a character with words, write a letter you send, write a letter you would never send, play the 'what if' game, make a list of things, count your blessings, start a novel, copy down poetic lines you have heard, write a movie review, revisit a favourite place, write down questions you have about anything,
eat a peach, taste the wind, draw and explain an invention, paste in an article that made you think, put in pressed flowers someone gave you, draw a cartoon and explain it, write a problem, write a poem, write a lead to an editorial, write down a dream you had and don't want to forget, write down who your real friends are, try an exercise from english class, write down great lines from a book you're reading, tape in an object, copy a poem, write about what you think people think of you, plan something, be a smart aleck, hear voices of people you have never met but are sure you know, write about an issue important to you, write a song, write about angels..
find out who you really are.




today it's been all about Come Home by OneRepublic, Complex Geometries, androgyny and unisex clothing, being brave, and past and re-issues.

zoning in, zoning out

i need to hop off these sites for a little while,
it's causing too much mayhem in my little world and making a stir of things that mean so little. little little little.
i try not to be horrible & i know for a fact that the person in q is definitely not horrible. misunderstandings are unforch the horrible person, in this case.
i hope today, day two, is the end of it all ja ? i feel like i'm in primary school again, being called up to the teacher's desk to explain the behaviour card predicament that shouldn't have existed in the first place, or at least wouldn't have if i had zipped my lips. sozozozoz.

but i am off to go and change some aspects of this site, so we can all remain anon.

uh fyoo reelaizayeshunz 4 j00, hahaha.

hi guy, try thai high pie. Aiii. Bye !

1. i haven't stopped loving pvc leggings - real or faux - since first seeing them on new yrs and also in brisbane over the summer holidays of 2008/9. i thought i would have gotten over them by now !
i'm really going to have to get a pair really soon to get over the craving, and i've got a few stores mapped out near me that i'm positive stock them these days, i think they're getting round a fair bit now so will be easy to find. but oh well.
i just hope they look ok and suck me in as much as i'm imagining haha. don't really care if my legs can't breathe..

2. oh now i've completely forgotten the second thing. this post is now so pointless..
i'll put it in here soon as i remember..hopefully will be soon.. but how annoying is it when that happens ! when something's on the tip of your..well not your tongue..on the tip of your brain [?], you're positive that it was this really amazingly important thing and you talk it up for ages..then you remember it, and it's usually so pointless. like something involving cereal or the colour of geeese in ballarat or something hahaha. mm my mind's working overtime now, what waaaasss #2 ??

Edit:I remembered number two mum, hoorah ! And sure enough it is pretty sillie.. I was reading back through my first ever blog entry and realised that I had images of a friend at the top, directly over some words about a boy that had caused me some stress at the time; different person pictured to the one that i was speaking of..eff why ai. :) holy guacamole am I glad to have finally remembered what was on the tip of my tongue/brain all day.

- also, can't wait for this movie.

the book Where the Wild Things Are had a pretty huge impact on my childhood..i think it might still be on my bookshelf even, yehe. i absolutely l♥ve/d it to pieces..and i think Arcade Fire have a pretty big contribution toward the soundtrack ? cannot go wrong.

edit:
um i still can't remember the 2nd thing that i had realised this morning, but i've found a third:
3. i was just on myspace and usually don't let things on there bother me; i don't want to be the sort of person who is so fragile that a denied friend request makes them upset haha..
but i was looking in a friend's photo album and all these social photos have just been uploaded. everyone looks amazingly fab and so glowing and smiling in every single shot and i'm so upset that i'm in none of them. i've missed so much already and its only may. i thought that spending every spare second on school work would pay off 'in the long run' but i don't even know if it's worth it anymore. i'm so sad that ive been putting all this time into grades that more often than not don't even reflect the hours ive put in on my reports/potential OP..creating no memories whatsoever to look back on of my last year at school, while i could be out spending time with the ones i love and giving my brain a break.
omg.
:(

how's school? the dentist asks. jdasflasijedr i reply with glove down throat. that sounds great he says, interpreting all.

ermm i bought a red tartan scarf today from the mens section of a shop that..isn't ish in my top hundred. haha. usually i can't find much in there, it's all really similar month after month, but maybe i've just been looking in the wrong gender's section all along ?
lies !
i hope it doesn't appear too flannie-esque; i think its the same material. but cosy ! in the last month or so i think ive bought about 4/5 scarves, i've really got to stop. it's getting to the point of embarrassment when i look at my bulging belt/scarf rack..due to the fact that i live in MACKAY not MELBOURNE. whoops, you got the wrong 'm' town shop assistant/s who willingly let me buy all of the cosy goods, how could you make such a minor error ? dang.

i was taking photos of my room today after cleaning it to remind me how nice it looks when its in this state. also, the sun was coming through my window really nicely so i wanted to capture the moment/o.
i 'filed' all my half-arsed diy jobs in bags to get them out of the way and it was terrible to find how much i haven't done. i never finish anything unless i have a deadline or birthday to work towards..really bad !

mel here's a sneakpeek hehe, what chew think its gonna bee ?

i really dont mean to show my wild concoction any more than is necessary, but i really like the colours and peaceful white action here with the curtain/wall/fluffball that's on the go. delish.


a gfriend of mine brought a whole heap of embarrassing/hilarious old notes to school the other day..they ranged from grade 8 up until this year. it was so disgusting seeing what i used to be like, and the way i treated certain people/spoke about them. i like to think i've changed a looot in that respect. its strange, i had barely any close friends at all in early high school bc i was trying so incredibly hard to be someone else..and yet i was so horrible and close-minded toward others. you wouldn't have thought that i would have had the self-confidence to be so judging of others that i hardly even knew, but somehow i found a way to be as such.
some were funny though, i think i must have had some sort of twisted mental disorder that skewed the image that i saw when looking in the mirror. it wasn't anorexia or anything weight-wise, but..and i dread to say it..literary. i think i must have thought that i looked like a dictionary..or a thesaurus even. who knows. but the words i used back then...oh man. hahahah dreeeaadful on a lot of occasions !
the point that i meant to have gotten to a whole lot earlier in that novella is the top-notch loot that i found when i looked through my equivalent of said friend's archives. i have a box full of envelopes. each envelope is stuffed with notes, tickets, old photographs, and letters from days gone by, and i had a sift through while still on a high from the notes read at school that day. the memories were so ridiculous..no words can describe the millionbazillion emotions that ran through me, wowzer.

here are only a handful of the bunch, a lot of letters/words that provided the most shits and gigs couldn't be photographed or posted on here due to their extensive lengthiness or that they contained people's names who might read this haha, but some of the little ones below were just as fun to re-discover.
jono i couldn't re-find that bris trip note after telling you about it ! it went into absolute hybernation when i went downstairs to grab the camera...so so strange. :(





the soothing tones of jamie cullum's 'twentysomething' album got me through this post in one piece. so thanks bundles, ricochet j.

that's really all, finally.
sleeptight snowflakes, keep your heads high and your hearts safely nestled behind your ribs..haha..but we all know there's not really any choice there.

he's the tear that hangs inside our soul forever

'i never stepped on a crack cos i thought i'd hurt my mother'
ahh how smart is that line from jeffrey buckley,
at least i think it is if its referring to the rhyme i remember from early childhood;
'step on a crack, break your mother's back'
how weird/morbid for children to go round saying that, haha :s

it's sort of like the way the ringaringarosie song is all about the plague !
it's lucky you're so innocent as a little person that you can go round singing those songs or fergie [alternatively, haha] and not think about the meaning of the words. if we did, we'd be going on 40 years old when we were 7-12 years old ish.. eesh !

my wearable thing's coming along, but looks really revolting on.
i don't know how to make it look good, i'm hoping some kookie hair combined w/ the headpiece or something will semi do the trick, i dunno..

from front:


LHS:


RHS:


back:


my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder,
all my riches for her smiles,
all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter

texture, smexture.

i think immensely chunkie knit is so lovely and feminine. i'd love to have more, or any, but can you imagine trying to pack something like that in a suitcase ? sorry trip to melbz in june/july holidays, maybe next time.


check the texture. deelightful.


i really loved the vogue spread last year [?] w/ this image on the LHS, it was so fun and made me want to go out straight after and make jewellery out of coke-bottle lids. and thats saying something.


how great is this image.
i wish i could take photos like that.


wow i wish there was a steady middle option b/w medium and large uploading size for images on Photobucket,
neither look good.
which program/site do YOU use to upload images normal sizes ? please enlighten.

nothing much else to report, excite my life.

peace, 'rachtard'.
thanks pete.